Renew the Fire Within
Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.—Psalm 51:10 (NIV)
I have no peace, no quietness; I have no rest, but only turmoil.—JOB 3:26 (NIV)
“I think you are depressed.” My doctor’s words shocked me, and I protested. I chose to be Daddy’s caregiver, and I found joy in all that I did for him. I also loved my job as a school administrator, and with my accumulated leave, I worked flex time to care for Daddy as needed.
My doctor persisted. “How are you really doing?” Her question triggered tears and honesty. Yes, even though I was
seeing a counselor, I was floundering. I admitted I could not concentrate at work. Simple tasks overwhelmed me. I slept less than three hours a night, my mind knotted with worry about Daddy. My cheerful persona shrouded the turmoil within.
I reluctantly agreed to begin a mild antidepressant. Then I hesitated to fill the prescription. I shouldn’t be so weak. Why didn’t Jesus simply make me better? I prayed for wisdom about the medication, and God’s peace came. After a few weeks on the medication, I began sleeping all night. Now that I felt rested, I handled all my responsibilities better and with renewed joy.
Father, help me to remember that while your healing may come miraculously, it may also come through physicians, counselors and friends.
Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.—Psalm 51:10 (NIV)
He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.—Psalm 147:3 (NIV)
The Lord will open the heavens, the storehouse of his bounty, to send rain on your land in season and to bless all the work of your hands.—Deuteronomy 28:12 (NIV)
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